LOST AND GAIN
its 2019,
I'm 24 years old.
i'm in a state where most of my friend already got married, engage, have kids, go honeymoon,
and here i am, single and flexible hahaha.
I never confessed first in my entire life.
Even with my ex, he's the one confessed to me first. and we had mutual feeling.
Got lucky on that.
But now,
I had crush on my classmate,
At first, i simply thought him as a motivational crush?
Its kinda like hmm, how do i say it.
Motivated me to learn and study harder because he's kinda smart and i want to catch up with him.
It was just a motivational crush.
AT FIRST.
Then it get longer and longer,
Without i notice about,
Its already been 2 years and a half that i secretly like him.
if you ask me, why do i even like this guys?
I.dont.even.know.
He is doesnt have any advantage in look, not even average.
He's annoying to hell,
Like not even a single soul thing i did to him,
He just suddenly wanna find trouble with me and for unknown and stupid reason we fight.
Seriously annoying.
At first.
But then,
He the one acknowledge my potential,
Give me chance to do something that i never imagine doing it,
He give me support even though he like to take advantage on me.
He's the one who talk to me first when i do not know anyone around me,
He also accept the real me,
He make a lame joke,
He give wise opinion,
He nagged a lot,
and he cares.
After 2 years and half, with support from my friend,
i decide to confess to him.
Well, i got rejected but it was a nice rejection.
After i got rejected, i still manage to laugh on lame jokes on the same day,
Make meme out of myself,
Hanging out with friend,
And start to cry two days later,
Oof, heartbroken was delayed. hahahaha
It was hard to forget my feeling for him.
Even after he make it clear that he want to maintain our relationship as frienemy.
I eat two box of regular size of my favorite pizza to overcome my sadness,
I write a lot of poem,
Anime doesnt work that time,
So i decide to join a boot camp to groove park.
It was fun and full of new adventure.
I manage to forget about my sadness and have the courage to move on.
I love how this manage to upgrade myself another step of maturity,
Confession was hard, but to move on was even harder.
But when the burden is gone,
The new you just blossom.
The world seem brighter.
Fyi, We still contact each other weekly,
Just to tell our story, problem, life and so on.
He such a nice friend that i dont afford to lose.
We still argue a lot, but then we laugh at each other by the end of it.
After all of this,
i decide to pursue my dream even harder,
To be influential novelist,
To try change the world with my story,
That hide at the end of my fingertips.
I'm 24 years old.
i'm in a state where most of my friend already got married, engage, have kids, go honeymoon,
and here i am, single and flexible hahaha.
I never confessed first in my entire life.
Even with my ex, he's the one confessed to me first. and we had mutual feeling.
Got lucky on that.
But now,
I had crush on my classmate,
At first, i simply thought him as a motivational crush?
Its kinda like hmm, how do i say it.
Motivated me to learn and study harder because he's kinda smart and i want to catch up with him.
It was just a motivational crush.
AT FIRST.
Then it get longer and longer,
Without i notice about,
Its already been 2 years and a half that i secretly like him.
if you ask me, why do i even like this guys?
I.dont.even.know.
He is doesnt have any advantage in look, not even average.
He's annoying to hell,
Like not even a single soul thing i did to him,
He just suddenly wanna find trouble with me and for unknown and stupid reason we fight.
Seriously annoying.
At first.
But then,
He the one acknowledge my potential,
Give me chance to do something that i never imagine doing it,
He give me support even though he like to take advantage on me.
He's the one who talk to me first when i do not know anyone around me,
He also accept the real me,
He make a lame joke,
He give wise opinion,
He nagged a lot,
and he cares.
After 2 years and half, with support from my friend,
i decide to confess to him.
Well, i got rejected but it was a nice rejection.
After i got rejected, i still manage to laugh on lame jokes on the same day,
Make meme out of myself,
Hanging out with friend,
And start to cry two days later,
Oof, heartbroken was delayed. hahahaha
It was hard to forget my feeling for him.
Even after he make it clear that he want to maintain our relationship as frienemy.
I eat two box of regular size of my favorite pizza to overcome my sadness,
I write a lot of poem,
Anime doesnt work that time,
So i decide to join a boot camp to groove park.
It was fun and full of new adventure.
I manage to forget about my sadness and have the courage to move on.
I love how this manage to upgrade myself another step of maturity,
Confession was hard, but to move on was even harder.
But when the burden is gone,
The new you just blossom.
The world seem brighter.
Fyi, We still contact each other weekly,
Just to tell our story, problem, life and so on.
He such a nice friend that i dont afford to lose.
We still argue a lot, but then we laugh at each other by the end of it.
After all of this,
i decide to pursue my dream even harder,
To be influential novelist,
To try change the world with my story,
That hide at the end of my fingertips.
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